Anxieties Building

Yesterday I was able to finish putting together my encyclopedia sketch book. I think it came out really great. It's a really thick and sturdy sketchbook with 5 or 6 different types of paper in each signature. It has 280 pages plus a pocket in the back. This sketchbook will act as a daily sketch journal for my year in Tokyo so it's important that it be sturdy and big enough to last the whole year.

With that out of the way, it's on to the next project which is my kamishibai. Due to my allergies i haven't really gotten much done today besides picking out pictures to print out. I bought another year on Flickr pro so I could access the really old pictures I have uploaded. This brought up two major concerns of mine. Money and a camera. I found myself in a very sticky financial situation. I need to pay off my electricity bill which is close to $300. With $100 in the bank and only $130 or so on the way from my last pay check, I'm starting to freak out. I need to pay this bill plus have money for the first two weeks in Tokyo. Once I'm in Tokyo I need to continue to pay off my credit card bill here in the states and address the second issue....a camera.

My camera is broken. At a time in my life when having a camera seems to be essential, I'm a bit frustrated. However, looking on the bright side, it'll force me to describe my setting and situations by drawing rather than shooting photos. I'm just not confident enough in my drawing abilities to want to rely on them as a source of sharing my one-in-a-lifetime experiences with people. maybe the pressure will do me good (until I'm able to buy a camera that is)

with less than two weeks left here, I guess it's not that surprising that I'm anxious and worrying about all kinds of little things. However, it doesn't make it any easier.

~Jess